I had a realization about myself this morning: I do not know how to enter situations without expectation. I do not know how to simply go into the unknown without having my own thoughts of what the outcome should be, what should happen, what should be said, etc. I suppose this comes from my ever present desire for control that the Lord has slowly been stripping me of...or rather showing me that He's in control. It really should be a relief to me that I can release control to the omniscient God that I love and serve, so why is it so hard?
Lord, teach me how to trust you with the outcomes of the mundane events in life. I have entrusted the entirety of my life to you, and now I surrender the everyday encounters, desires, and events of my life to you, deliberately trusting that I don't have to anticipate specific outcomes because you are in charge. Guard my heart against disappointment from my expectations, knowing that you are in control and your will is far better than my expectations could ever be. Protect my heart from jealousy when things don't go "my way" and help me to cling to the hope which is mine through you.
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